/sighs/

I am very suffocated.

Everyone is suffocating me.

Peer pressure is getting into me, and i can't do anything but to cry.

I thought---I REALLY thought that I'm mature enough not to get sway with all the dramas of my teenage life, once again I'm wrong.

I want someone to understand me-- no just someone to embrace me or someone who will say "You can do it" or "Goodluck" I am very afraid to seek help from others. I hate rejection after all.

My imaginary family is so warm--so warm that I'm afraid that I might get burn. Their bond is so strong that I think that I'm not really fitted to be with them. Chi-san, L-chan and M-chan..i dont really want to trouble them. as well as S-chan since we're still kinda awkward with each other. V-chan ..i tried to tell her that I'm breaking down but.. i got afraid.. that's why i erase the idea. Ichi-chan.. I dont really want her to see this side of me, she might hate me or just .. I don't really want to find out the consequences.

FUCK MY LIFE.